Preparing to Live With Limitations

On a recent Saturday, I returned from a trip to St. Louis to visit my mother.

The following Monday I came down with a cold. Nothing major there — negative on multiple Covid and flu tests. For four days I coughed, sniffled, and whined to my wife.

And I stayed home.

By Thursday, I was 50% recovered. Friday, I felt good enough to attend — wearing a mask — a friend’s birthday party.

Let the record show I defeated the common cold. But four days at home got me thinking.

My lifestyle in retirement is based on being out of the house. Most weekdays I have two activities scheduled, in two different places:

  • Monday and Wednesday I have ping pong and boxing.
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  • Tuesday and Thursday are for indoor cycling and tai chi.
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  • Friday is mostly a rest day, with just a qi gong class. Saturday has boxing, Sunday has a ping pong lesson.

Every single day I walk out of the house, get in the car, and go do something.

The energy, ability and resources to do those things? I’ve taken them for granted. Four days in the house was a bucket of cold water.

I’ve been watching my Mom’s world shrink for about five years. She’s 91, dealing with dementia, recently-diagnosed Parkinson’s, and the aftereffects of a stroke.

She used to play tennis and run for exercise. Now she uses a walker and a wheelchair.

In the past five years she stopped driving and moved from her own condo to an Assisted Living community. She was briefly allowed to take walks outside her building, but she got lost in her own neighborhood.

She was a career travel agent who weht to Antartica in her 80’s. Now she can’t leave her own building without an escort.

By comparison, my sniffles were extremely minor, and temporary.

But sitting at home for four days gave me plenty of time to consider the possibility that at some point, my world will shrink in much the same way.

I’m not ready for it.

My current lifestyle depends on my ability to drive — ping pong and Rock Steady Boxing are 30 minutes away by car.

I haven’t thought much about what I’ll do when I can no longer drive…when my energy level drops…when Parkinson’s progresses to the point when my world will be whatever I can do within four walls.

Right now my focus is on putting off that day for as long as possible. But the odds are it’s coming.

For those in my audience who have faced a version of this, I’d be grateful for your insight in the Comments. What adjustments have you made? What kind of support was available? How have you been able to control your attitude?

If you’d prefer to communicate privately, you can email me here:

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Elections Have Consequences

Buried in the pile of executive orders signed during the first two weeks of the Trump Administration: a regulation-freeze that may wipe out a big 2024 Parkinson’s community victory.

A few weeks ago I wrote about the Environmental Protection Agency’s ban of Trichloroethylene (TCE), a solvent that causes several forms of cancer and is associated with a 500% increase in the risk of Parkinson’s disease.

According to Parkinson’s Avengers, that ban is now on hold.

The TCE rule was originally expected to escape the reach of a regulatory freeze, as it was due to take effect on 16 January, four days before Trump’s inauguration.

However, industry litigants secured a court-ordered temporary stay of the rule before it took effect (see box), putting the regulatory freeze mechanism in play.

The freeze will delay the TCE rule’s effective date until 21 March, giving the EPA officials “the opportunity for further review and consideration of new regulations”, according to a 28 January Federal Register notice.

Concurrently, in the litigation over the rule, the US Court of Appeals for the Third Circuit agreed to an EPA request to pause legal proceedings for 60 days, to “brief new administration officials with decision-making responsibility about this case and the issues presented”.


In addition, Representative Diana Harshbarger (R – Tennessee) has filed a Congressional Review Act resolution, that, if passed by both houses of Congress and signed by the President, will fully invalidate the rule.

Happy breathing, everyone!

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Bonus for Those Who Read to the Bottom

AC/DC’s “Dirty Deeds Done Dirt Cheap,” performed as a sea shanty.

“Bohemian Rhapsody,” as a surf instrumental.

Depeche Mode’s “I Just Can’t Get Enough” performed on kitchen implements.

12 responses to “Preparing to Live With Limitations”

  1. dpaulmiller Avatar
    dpaulmiller

    I’d like to see Michael J Fox and others (if they aren’t already) invest some of their money to kicking Harshbarger and her clueless ilk out of office. I’d gladly donate to the cause as well.

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    1. philbernstein Avatar

      I’m not aware of MJF supporting or opposing specific candidates, but Harshbarger will be up for reelection in 2026, and I’d be delighted to write a check to her opponent.

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      1. philbernstein Avatar

        On the other hand, a Google search tells me she won reelection in 2024 with 78.8% of the vote.

        So…. never mind.

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  2. collectionleftebb509fd81 Avatar
    collectionleftebb509fd81

    Phil-I have not lost my ability to drive but I’ve known many who (Parkinson’s/other reasons) who have been pleased with both ride share and Uber/Lyft services.Rob(503) 307-8738 (Cell)🏓🟦

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    1. philbernstein Avatar

      Uber/Lyft is certainly a convenient option, but it would be awfully expensive to duplicate what I’m doing now – 12 round trips from NE Portland to Tigard each month will add up quickly, with a Beaverton-Tigard hop in between.

      When my car was in the shop a few months ago I tried the bus a couple of times. Not unpleasant but 90 minutes each way.

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      1. collectionleftebb509fd81 Avatar
        collectionleftebb509fd81

        Yep cost is a factor. Some folks have had 2 cars, gotten rid of one and made enough cash to defray the extra cost-it’s more than a math probl

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  3. Sharon Krischer Avatar

    Don’t write yourself off yet. There are many of us who were diagnosed more than 15 years ago who are still driving and getting out there.

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    1. philbernstein Avatar

      Thanks for the encouragement, Sharon. I’m hoping I’ve got at least several years of driving to go —- currently scoring an 88 out of 100 on AARP’s SafeTrip app.

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  4. Kevin Rowan Avatar
    Kevin Rowan

    Truth be told, I skipped this one today because I am still unpacking, and will be for roughly “all winter!” but then I saw the comments and decided to dive in. Once, relativity is key here. I’m tired from two solid weeks of 10-12 hour days unpacking, but aside from that, am pretty healthy. And, once again, after being touched and impressed by your words, I was rewarded with a couple musical treats. Well, what else to say? You inspire me and others with your ruminations. They resonate and affirm similar feelings and observations that many of us must be having, or being able to empathize with, being past middle age and having parents to care for as well.
    Carry on, my friend. It was a joy to see you last weekend. We’ll have to have lunch soon. Keep fighting!

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    1. philbernstein Avatar

      Thanks for the kind words and support, Kevin. I’m glad the blog is resonating.

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  5. Rod Schwartz Avatar

    Phil,

    I’ve been reading and enjoying your recent posts on your Parkinson’s journey. After this last one (on preparing to live with limitations), I kept coming back to the idea of prayer. I’ve listened to Haddon Robinson’s short (30 min. or so) exposition of what we commonly call The Lord’s Prayer many times. Just now, I thought to share it with you. If nothing else, I think you’ll enjoy Haddon Robinson’s speaking style. He died in 2017 of Parkinson’s, but what a life he lived!

    Love to hear what you think after listening to him.

    Here’s the video: https://youtu.be/YAPtBgPjj0w?si=6QEmf45JYXte5abx

    God bless,

    Rod

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    1. philbernstein Avatar

      Thank you, Rod. I will listen to this.

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I’m Phil Bernstein

I was diagnosed with Parkinson’s Disease on May 25, 2023. At the time, I was only vaguely aware of Parkinson’s — primarily from articles in People about Michael J. Fox. And I didn’t know anyone with the disease.

Now, I know a lot more about the illness, and I’ve joined the Parkinson’s community in my hometown of Portland, Oregon.

I’ve found that writing helps me think through challenges, and this illness definitely qualifies as a challenge. I’ve started Shakin’ Street to help me think through the various obstacles, tools, and resources that a newly-diagnosed Parkinson’s patient encounters along the way.

I hope some of these posts help you address and tackle your own challenges.

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